A Update



Its been a while since I wrote on here. I’ve been quite busy been kept very busy at voluntary work with new tasks which is great. Its snowed here a couple of weeks ago which caused all sorts of chaos such as being stuck in so I watched Netflix all day I have got addicted to an American television series called Pretty little Liars. I have been settled just bored of my daily life but I am going to look for new things to do during the day. I have let myself fall of my diet at weight watchers so going to try again may go back to group its very difficult trying to do it on your own I have found out. I am seeing my good friend Nick on Saturday we are going to the cinema to see Peter Rabbit movie cant wait and seeing my friend Fatemah the week after aswell. I have known Fatemah 12 years this year in September I cant believe I’ve been friends with someone so long and not fell out or lost touch. My thoughts have been a bit weird especially recently wanting to come off my medication was one but I don’t think that would be helpful. I am thinking about selling some of my drawings especially my cartoon ones. 


x lucy x


New Tattoo !!!



This blog post is about my ‘Tattoo’

I had this tattoo which has the autism jigsaw puzzle in the butterfly which is a meaningful tattoo to me, as I am on the autistic spectrum and by having this tattoo it shows that I don’t blame any single thing on my autism in my diagnosis or day to day life, I battle every day as it comes –  sometimes I struggle sometimes I don’t. I have anxieties and sometimes I have to think of where to go especially if theres a certain place I want to go that has large crowds and noise. I have had a struggle especially with sensory issues over the years and struggling to adapt to change.  I take each day as it comes both with my autism and my mental health. I am mildly affected with my autism but sensory is still a huge involvement in my life even with mild autism. 

I have achieved certain things in my life even with a learning disability and autism;

Passing an English exam in mainstream recently in level 1 functional skills English, Being able to create a blog and get views, being able to do Art work such as drawing and make drawings to realistic , being able to design and make cards to send out at Christmas, Being accepted into volunteering in any of my volunteering placements that I have had over the past few years, Having my own flat in a rented property and keeping my flat looking nice and passing all inspection reports, Managing money it took a while with some mistakes but I am finally managing my money in a positive way, Reading and writing well, not seeing professional team regularly anymore, Socialising and going out more often than I did a couple of years ago, Knowing what I want in life and making decisions on my own more often and I have some good positive hobbies and qualities about myself which can be used in day to day life.

x Lucy x 


My 28th Birthday….

This blog is about my birthday which was on Saturday 17th February 2018. IMG_3885My 28th birthday was a whole weekend of celebrating.

Friday afternoon I had a meal with my Mum and Dad and got my cards and presents ready for Saturday and I got a personalised balloon.

Saturday was my actual birthday where I started opening my presents and cards in the morning. At lunch me and my support worker had afternoon tea. I went to the theatre to see Shrek the musical which was fabulous. I got home and got a surprise bunch of flowers off my close friend Luke which were delivered by Interflora.

Some of the gifts I got were; 2 Pandora rings, a jumper from Quiz, a necklace, money, next gift card, art pens and a clipboard, and 2 fat friends theatre tickets (off Nick) I had some lovely cards too.

Sunday I had another meal with Mum and Dad where we went to Pesto Italian restaurant in Sutton Coldfield it was a lovely meal, Then I went to my aunts in the afternoon with Mum and Dad and had a lovely birthday cake. 

It was a lovely 28th birthday!!! 

Thank you to all who gave me a card, presents or money it was very kind of you all.

Lucy. x 🙂






















































































Sensory Integration



I have a mild learning disability and mild autism and have recently been told I have sensory integration disorder or sensory processing disorder as its sometimes known as.

What is it?

Sensory integration is when someone has trouble with there senses but those with the disorder can may have trouble with co-ordination such as balance, be clumsy by dropping items or bumping into items for example.

The five senses are; touch, taste, hearing, sight and  smell.. 

the symptoms can be getting tired easily after doing a task/activity, poor balance, find instructions hard to follow, poor posture, doesn’t like new activities, distressed by noise, notice background sounds that others cannot hear, can notice smells more than others, high tolerance to pain, may be sensitive to certain clothing, behaviour problems, may not want to socialise.

My story,

I am sensitive to noise and touch I have noticed it and family have noticed it for a long time, years actually –  since I lived at home with my family. I get really stressed out with noises especially loud noises i’ve always avoided discos that others go to in my care company cos I know it would increase my anxiety levels when I got home, I used to cover my hands over my ears when I lived at home when the family were talking, or I would put my head on the table with my hands over my ears, or I would spend a lot if time in my bedroom but that turned into a negative thing to do in the end as I started harming myself. I get irritated by certain noises and I  will only have the television, radio, speaker on a low volume as I cannot stand it to high in volume. I avoid touch as much as possible I won’t sit too close to people, I avoid hugs, I hate someone tapping me or touching me in every single way. 

I have recently had a full assessment off learning disability -occupational therapy which included sensory and praxis tests and I had a 1:1 assessment too which was done a few months earlier before the full assessment which was 16 tests. I was tested on most of the senses and I failed quite a lot of the tests which showed them that I have sensory problems and how much I use my sight to help me also they said how bad my co-ordination and balance can be.

I will be having a sensory diet routine put into place also my support workers will have 2 lots of training. 


Lucy xx 




Feeling alone.


This blog is about ‘feeling alone’

I often feel alone/lonely its a feeling that always returns, I’ve had the feeling of feeling alone for a very long time since school and I left secondary school at 16 in 2006. 

I have a few friends and I have a loving family but I feel like I have nobody at times which is sad. 

I compare myself to others who have lots of friends who seem happy and who can socialise and especially with those who haven’t got a  learning disability/mental health problems. 

I have kept my few friends for many years they mean everything to me but I tend to wish I had more friends I could see and socialise with but a plus side to that I made a friend in the past year who’s been a real great friend to me.

I wish I could think more positive to think of the great things about having family and a few close friends, but I rarely think of positives.

I am not in a relationship I haven’t had one for many years one, due to the problems I have had I do want one but I always feel nobody would want me with my history of self harm, mental health, my bad negative thoughts,  and so on..I have had a few relationships previously but they never worked out and one really affected me mentally which stays with me to this day in what he did and what he said to me, it was in 2008, I feel thats the  reason I am lonely a lot of the time is that I have nobody to see on a regular basis – I have a friend who lives in Swindon who I see monthly but I feel a month is a long time to see a friend, but my friend in Swindon knows how to make me smile and make me feel good.

I hope one day I can feel content in the way I am and to accept myself for who I am and accept the small amount of friends I have,  and stop comparing myself to others who may not be 100% happy themselves. 


Lucy x 








The things that make me happy :-)

Hi this blog post is about what makes me happy – sometimes I find it hard to think of the things I am grateful for when I am low but these are the things that make me happy;

  • My family and friends who are everything to me
  • Having a flat I rent off a landlord which I keep nice.
  • Being independent in a lot of things eg; cooking, cleaning….
  • Being able to go places for example college.
  • Having a range of things I like doing
  • Being able enough to be able to do the things I do each day
  • Being lucky enough to be accepted into Solihull community housing to volunteer twice a week
  • Being able to read and write well
  • Being able to make my own decisions.
  • To be able to be very good on computers. I can even use photoshop.
  • To be able to look presentable in the way I look.
  • To be able to battle through my problems
  • That its been 6 years (in August) since discharge from hospital and I am still with the same care provider.
  • Thinking of positive happy times from the past.
  • Thinking of things I could achieve in the future – which can also be scary at times
  • Getting stuck in a great book but I love fiction and biographies.
  • Speaking to friends but my friend Luke texts me each night which makes me smile.
  • When positive things happen to me.
  • When I make money on eBay by selling unwanted items.
  • When I purchase/receive new items
  • When I buy new stationery I LOVE stationery items especially pens 🙂
  • Watching/listening to musicals. I love London theatres.
  • Watching Disney films or any of my favourite films such as twilight.
  • When I get compliments off people
  • Special occasions such as Christmas
  • Drawing and being happy if it turns out better than expected
  • Creating cards after making them from scratch.
  • Looking back through photos
  • SELFIES!! especially with snapchat filters.
  • When I hear happy songs or songs by a band/singer I like.
  • Watching reality television or soaps on television
  • Having my hair a different colour 🙂 I have been many hair colours the last few years
  • If I stick at something more than a few weeks I feel I have achieved something.
  • Remembering memories with Jasper our family dog 🙂
  • Losing weight at weight watchers feels great when I see the numbers going down on the scale.
  • Cooking a meal from scratch is a great achievement
  • Having a good nights sleep which I hardly have these days without having broken sleep which means being awake most of the night
  • Going to libraries they are one of my favourite places to go in my spare time
  • Planning things to look forward to in the future

Lucy xx




This blog is about volunteering. 

I volunteer for my local councils community housing I do administration there the sort of tasks I do are;  scanning certificates such as electric and gas, typing up letters on letter headed paper, putting information on the gas certificates, spread sheets, I use a programme called sword- fish there, I have been there since March and I enjoy volunteering. 

I have been volunteering for some years I tried charity shops various charity shops in Solihull but I just didn’t take to them I didn’t like steaming clothes and I felt 2 hours was too long to just tidy a shop which some managers got me to do. I then discovered a company which is through the council but I found them through Advocacy they help those with learning disabilities get a voluntary job or paid work.

I started at Chelmsley Wood Library and stayed there for nearly 11 months I did like it but I hated cleaning books with cleaning solutions, cutting forms out and shredding (it always overheated) – I learnt skills such as how to make a display and dealing with the public as I was out in the main library at times. The staff were lovely in the library even though sometimes they had nothing much for me to do and they let me know they were worried I was getting bored but then I decided I would move on after I did 11 months there, they sent me a lovely leaving present.

I did do volunteering at Cherished in Sutton Coldfield for a few months but I left after I was let down several times but I did enjoy doing spreadsheets on excel for the lady running cherished. 

I began at Solihull Community Housing in March 2017 it was a struggle to get going at first because I found understanding swordfish difficult, but I did learn the new things and now I can do it right and sometimes I am challenged with new tasks, I enjoy attending each week even though the tasks are sometimes repetitive – I don’t get bored they keep me busy for all of the time I am there. Its the type of job I would love to have in an open plan office with lovely people and doing lots of computer work. The people there are lovely!!

The benefits of volunteering are;

  • Gaining communication skills whilst dealing with others e.g; other employees. 
  • Developing my computers skills further 
  • Meeting different people 
  • Gaining more confidence
  • Feeling accomplished after I have finished volunteering for the day
  • Learning new skills
  • Feeling like I am helping those working there out when they have praised me for all my help.
  • Feeling like I’m not judged or misunderstood as they are letting me continue volunteering each week and they even let me do another day. 


Lucy Xx


Scarlett Moffatt ~ Me life story (book review)

Scarlett Moffatt ~ Me life story (book) 

Book review by Lucy HallIMG_3628

I started Scarlett Moffatt’s book on 1st January 2018 and finished it on 5th January 2018 (it only took me 5 days). I received this book for Christmas 2017. Its a book about Scarletts life since she was a baby in 1990 and ends last year (2017) just before the book was going to be published  she talks about her ups and downs she’s had along the way some bits are sad and some bits are very funny. I really look up to her – even more since I read her book. It’s amazing to think less than 5 years ago she wasn’t a known name to the public, and then she has come from Gogglebox sitting on the sofa watching television, to ‘I’m a celebrity get me out of here’ to presenting on shows such as ‘Streetmate’. Scarlett is now a well know name in the eyes of celebrity!!! Its lovely to hear her write in her book, she hasn’t changed since becoming a name to her friends/family she is the same person she was before. 

I recommend this book. I couldn’t put the book down from beginning to end I was gripped. I give this book 10/10!!!!! I now follow on all the social media sites I am on I just want to carry on hearing about her and her success. 


Goodbye 2017.

Hello all,

Its New Years Eve and I am reflecting back on the year I’ve achieved some things that were big achievements such as; 

  • I have stuck at voluntary and moved from volunteering at Chelmsley Wood Library to working at Solihull Community Housing in Chelmsley Wood which I would like to do another day there. 
  • I made the decision to go back to college one morning a week to do level 1 Functional skills English.
  • I joined weight watchers.
  • I stayed in London for 1 night with support which went well.
  • I have self harmed a lot less this year than previous years.
  • My low moods don’t last too long anymore.
  • I have made a new friend this year.
  • I have changed and broken routines I was stuck in and wouldn’t change at first.
  • I have gained confidence since January especially since voluntary at Solihull Community Housing.
  • I have stuck to hobbies recently, such as drawing. 
  • I mad the care provider Christmas cards which were for the clients. 
  •  I started a course online.
  • I don’t focus on my autism or bipolar anymore of use it as an excuse.
  • I don’t see ‘professionals’ as much anymore such as community nursing, psychology and I haven’t seen psychiatry for over a year. 


In 2018 I have made some resolutions such as;

  • To Lose weight/ get to target weight.
  • To join groups – get more volunteering and stick at the groups I join. 
  • Keep on seeing friends regularly.
  • To self harm less and hopefully stop.
  • To think positive and make positive decisions. 
  • To not get into set routines.
  • Change things I don’t like about myself.
  • Manage my difficulties better.


Hope you all have a great New Years eve tonight, and a great 2018!!! 


Lucy x 






Christmas ❤️🎄


In the past few days it has been Christmas, which has been lovely I’ve seen my family open there presents and I’ve received some lovely items, had some lovely food and had a great time it’s been lovely🙂 I got back home from staying at my parents since Christmas Eve afternoon this evening and I am tired from the late nights and the winding down since Christmas but I can say I have had a fabulous time. I am grateful for the money that was spent on me 🎁🙂 a couple of friends text me on Christmas Day saying they loved there presents which made me feel so happy and grateful that I have got friends, it may have taken me years to get close friends but at least I have got friends. I am at home for New Year’s Eve but it should be great I am going out in the day and having a meal on the evening, then I am watching the fireworks 🎆 on television at midnight.

Lucy x